Asked by Anonymous
Mm, she has. Some what.
It’s a post to my best friend, and it’s in response to something she wrote on her Tumblr that same night. I stopped talking to her a few months back when things went all wrong, and I took a big portion of it out on her.
Thanks for caring, though. <3
iloveyou.
I just got out of a movie, when I looked at your text. My heart stopped, and I tried to pretend I hadn’t just read it. I was driving down the 5 towards Burbank, when I started crying in the car. I was so scared to see what you wrote, I didn’t even know if I had the courage too. I’ve been such an emotional wreck tonight, and for weeks, all I’ve wanted to do was crawl into bed and cry on your shoulder. I’ve never been so shaky, or so lost my entire life. Anthony hasn’t the slightest clue how to handle how depressed I’ve been. I meant every word I’ve ever said to you, best friend. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about you, wish I didn’t tell you off- again. I’m so hurt, and broken down; I’m not the same girl without you, either. Don’t think you’re the only one thinking it. I can’t even listen to our songs anymore without crying, let alone have the lyrics randomly pop in my head. Even though you might not believe it, I love and miss you more than anything.
And you’re wrong, I do care. I read your Tumblr every single day.
My name is Rae.
For years, I’ve been trying to find the beauty in the world, despite all the evil. &Just recently, I’ve come to realize that the world’s beauty can’t be found anymore. The harder you look, the more distant it becomes. No one is real- Not you, ¬ me. Growing up has been the hardest rollercoaster I’ve come to face, &I’m discovering that the only person I’ll ever be able to rely on is myself. We are the only ones covering our own backs, pushing ourselves to do better despite what the world wants, &keeps us moving forward in this life.
Reality is harsh, &it bit me. Hard.
